Thank you. Unfortunately, it’s become more than a matter of trust, because when I found myself ready to seek help, it’s nowhere to be found in this country. The affirmation model means I can’t deconstruct the mistakes I made, because according to the anti conversion, conversion bill (because it’s a just a transing away the gay, pro-conversion bill ) that passed here recently, it’s not affirming to someone who “claims” to be a detransitioner. I’m just confused and need to get back on the trans train to loony town. No Thank You. I can’t even find someone to talk to on a hotline, without some man impersonating a woman answering the phone for The Assaulted Women’s Helpline. More like, come-and-talk-to-me-so-I-can-re-traumatize-you, line. I bet they get off on our trauma. I ended up having to hang up after saying, “no thanks, I want to speak to a woman.” This only happened a few months ago, and it was one of the scariest nights of my life. I had no one, I could trust to talk to, as all my former friends drank the kool aid long ago. I just quietly detransitioned alone, several years ago, peaking in stages, to where I’m at now. Hardline, with hard boundaries. I can’t even tolerate seeing a drag queen on TV. Nothing is cute or funny about this, and there are far too many pedo apologists in this cult. I’m looking at you Genspect and GDAlliance. The only way I could possibly get any therapy, is if I had the 50-200 bucks an hour it would cost to see one. And I don’t have money for that.
I hope I’m wrong, but I believe there will be an increase in the suicide rates of many people. Some whose bodies were surgically, legally mutilated at such a young age, that they never even had the chance to think about whether they would ever want any children of their own, and who will also never experience a healthy sexuality. I fear a long line of funerals for many young people, who never once experienced an orgasm, and were rendered unable to have kids long before they stopped being kids themselves.
As someone who made my mistakes in mid life, I at least, had the chance to experience some of the joys in life, that these younger people never will. I fear a generation silenced, unable to speak basic truths. And what is left for us, but violence , if we are made criminal for speaking biological facts? I want to be so wrong, but I have little hope that this ship will get righted in time. Now, that the AGP billionaires are getting their way, just as they planned in those first transgender law meetings at the Houston Hilton. Because all grassroots orgs. have the budgets to hold their first conferences at The Hilton. Riiight. I’m afraid the war is already lost, because “it’s capitalism stupid.” Since the big money got involved, the crazy ideology and its policing of language has grown exponentially, and kids are now being taught that the feelings in their heads supersede the biological realities of their bodies. And that sex is a social construct. And biology and science are racist and social constructs. I really do, want to, “Get Out.”
Decades of this disgusting trend of normalizing fetishes makes me want to find a cave and curl up into a ball. I don’t know how much more I can take.
Absolutely 💯. The one thing I would add is that as a parent of a trans identifying daughter.... I may not be able to prevent her from taking a similar path, but by reading detransitioners accounts... I have found faith in the strength of so many to pick up the pieces and continue to find ways to assimilate all of their experiences into building meaningful lives and in hopefully finding their inner beauty that is truly the important & authentic manifestation of their self. I can relax, some, knowing that if my daughter transitions (and she later realizes it was the wrong path) she will survive it, with scars inside and out, but knowing herself in ways that she can't even fathom at this point in her young life.
Thank you. Unfortunately, it’s become more than a matter of trust, because when I found myself ready to seek help, it’s nowhere to be found in this country. The affirmation model means I can’t deconstruct the mistakes I made, because according to the anti conversion, conversion bill (because it’s a just a transing away the gay, pro-conversion bill ) that passed here recently, it’s not affirming to someone who “claims” to be a detransitioner. I’m just confused and need to get back on the trans train to loony town. No Thank You. I can’t even find someone to talk to on a hotline, without some man impersonating a woman answering the phone for The Assaulted Women’s Helpline. More like, come-and-talk-to-me-so-I-can-re-traumatize-you, line. I bet they get off on our trauma. I ended up having to hang up after saying, “no thanks, I want to speak to a woman.” This only happened a few months ago, and it was one of the scariest nights of my life. I had no one, I could trust to talk to, as all my former friends drank the kool aid long ago. I just quietly detransitioned alone, several years ago, peaking in stages, to where I’m at now. Hardline, with hard boundaries. I can’t even tolerate seeing a drag queen on TV. Nothing is cute or funny about this, and there are far too many pedo apologists in this cult. I’m looking at you Genspect and GDAlliance. The only way I could possibly get any therapy, is if I had the 50-200 bucks an hour it would cost to see one. And I don’t have money for that.
I hope I’m wrong, but I believe there will be an increase in the suicide rates of many people. Some whose bodies were surgically, legally mutilated at such a young age, that they never even had the chance to think about whether they would ever want any children of their own, and who will also never experience a healthy sexuality. I fear a long line of funerals for many young people, who never once experienced an orgasm, and were rendered unable to have kids long before they stopped being kids themselves.
As someone who made my mistakes in mid life, I at least, had the chance to experience some of the joys in life, that these younger people never will. I fear a generation silenced, unable to speak basic truths. And what is left for us, but violence , if we are made criminal for speaking biological facts? I want to be so wrong, but I have little hope that this ship will get righted in time. Now, that the AGP billionaires are getting their way, just as they planned in those first transgender law meetings at the Houston Hilton. Because all grassroots orgs. have the budgets to hold their first conferences at The Hilton. Riiight. I’m afraid the war is already lost, because “it’s capitalism stupid.” Since the big money got involved, the crazy ideology and its policing of language has grown exponentially, and kids are now being taught that the feelings in their heads supersede the biological realities of their bodies. And that sex is a social construct. And biology and science are racist and social constructs. I really do, want to, “Get Out.”
Decades of this disgusting trend of normalizing fetishes makes me want to find a cave and curl up into a ball. I don’t know how much more I can take.
Absolutely 💯. The one thing I would add is that as a parent of a trans identifying daughter.... I may not be able to prevent her from taking a similar path, but by reading detransitioners accounts... I have found faith in the strength of so many to pick up the pieces and continue to find ways to assimilate all of their experiences into building meaningful lives and in hopefully finding their inner beauty that is truly the important & authentic manifestation of their self. I can relax, some, knowing that if my daughter transitions (and she later realizes it was the wrong path) she will survive it, with scars inside and out, but knowing herself in ways that she can't even fathom at this point in her young life.